Wednesday, November 24, 2004

War on Love

Screw the war on terror. Someone needs to start a war on love. It's a powerful, destructive force that needs to be stopped. It's kind of like a drug. Sure, it makes you happy while you're on it, but then you get withdrawal symptoms and you go crazy. I got addicted to Ashley. I haven't had her for three months and I think I'm going to go crazy.
I need help. I don't need Amy to be out of town for a week. Seeing her keeps me from spiraling into madness. And God help William if I complete that spiral, because right now a huge part of me wants to make him suffer for this, and I'm afraid of that part winning over.

10 comments:

Erin said...

Nathan, I'm sorry. I'm sorry I haven't been visiting your blog regularly and I'm sorry I haven't commented. I just don't know what to say and I so much want everything to be okay for you. You deserve a lot better than this. I can't really give any advice, but I can ask you to please, please tough it out and know that people really do care about you and are praying for you. I know I am-- promise.

Amaris said...

I ditto everything Erin said. Just keep going day by day, and it will end. I'm here for you.

Pirate_King said...

I know the feeling of a girl being like a drug. It's why I'm not with Gynyfur. The drug is lust, not love, and I fought it since breaking up with Kaylee, lost against Gynyfur, and I'm trying to ignore it. I know it's harder, since Ashley lasted much longer, but it's mostly hormonal and you can beat it. Drugs are bad.

wings said...

oh Nathan... Evil comp has been slow so i havent been able to comment... I've just read most of the last nbt, even though i knew already a lot of it. And the compendium thing. Please realize I am always here for you, as I know you are for me. And you scared me. really bad. Those times you were talkign about when you were suicidal? Yeah, I noticed. And it scared me. I'm glad things are a bit better, and I hope they continue that way, but don't just wait around. You need to live your life in the interrim.

Nathaniel Cornstalk said...

I think I came closer to homicidal than suicidal. I never really thought about killing myself, just killing William. But thanks for being there.

wings said...

Anytime. *hug*

La belle fille said...

Nate: I am worried about you. I want to help you however I can, within reason. I don't like seeing you this upset, especially over me. Things will get better, trust me.

paul said...

Homocidal? That's it, I'm teaching you the happy song.

violinvoice said...

hey, i know this is way after the fact. I had no idea what you were going through. i'm so sorry . . . there is no way i could ever replace her.

Anonymous said...

I'm jumping onto the Nathan Support Group Bandwagon, though belatedly. Not much else to say, except thank you for not going ballistic.

-Big Marv